holding on too hard
Posted on Thursday, 7 April 2011 @ 22:40
















Picture credits:allkpop

I read from Allkpop that HyoMin is on a diet.
YES. DIET! God. Look at her legs, it's so slim already~
I want those legs~ ㅠㅠ But seriously, I don't see anything on her to diet anymore.
She's fine this way! Saw some of the comments and many were like saying she's too skinny and she doesn't look healthy :x
 And also, that's PIZZAAA in the photo~ *drools*

Anyway, today was a super boring day.
Could have went out with my darlings. But I can't.
I'm so sorry Naddie and Sharrie. ):
Felt upset after that.

And I kept on thinking about stuffs recently.
These few days I kept thinking about the expectations people have of me.
Expecting me to know my limits, expecting me to study well, expecting me to find a job, expecting to me handle my money wisely, expecting me to spend time with you, expecting me to help out, expecting me to talk to you when you feel like it, expecting me to get lost when you don't feel like it, expecting me to respect you when you don't respect me, expecting me not to get angry when you say rude things to me, expecting me to do all the things on my own, expecting me to forgive and forget, expecting me not to have too much hatred towards someone, blah blah blah.

And you will be like 'Hey~ I don't expect much from you, I just want you to do this.'
And then another you will be like 'You just have to be like this and I would be satisfied.'
And then another you will be like 'It's just a simple thing. Can't you just do it?'
Yup! Each individual one of you want me to do this simple thing. But have you ever thought that there are so many of 'you' in my life.
And all this individual simple expectations add up to a whole lump of weight on my shoulders.
I'm a HUMAN. I have imperfections. No one on Earth is perfect. Can't you just accept my flaws? And stop expecting so much?!
Don't tell me you don't have flaws? I can point them out one by one, in your face.
I didn't. So why the hell are you picking mine out?

I know I'm not good enough. No one is.
I need space to breathe. Comeon.
And when I make a single mistake, you flare up. While someone continuously made mistakes and you feel that 'It's alright. Let's forgive.'
Like 'HUH?!
I'm tired of people in my life comparing me with someone and expecting something from me every now and then. ENOUGH.
And where the hell can I let go off all this frustration in me? Not in front of you.
 Also, I don't get it why the hell some 'kaypo's like to pop their head in and add oil to the fire. Is it even your problem? Don't you have problems of your own? Go solve yours first alright? Sheesh~

Alright. Non-ranting part. (Some sort)
Went out with bro yesterday for the survey job training.
I tell you, it's super duperrrr troublesome and I'm not exaggerating at all! I'm not being picky also. It's like if I sign up for the job, I'm losing rather than gaining profits :x
Gosh. But I have to say the school is rather pretty but I heard from bro that it's a small school. So I decided to look for other jobs. (Any job intro?)
I desperately need money for J. ㅠㅠ
I have so many troubles in my head now. Wanna shake all of them out!!!!!! *shake shake shake*

Ok~ My last 10 facts!! WHEEEHARH! Finally~
#100FACTSABOUTME DONE! :D
  1. People normally use the fork with their left hand and spoon with their right hand but I use the fork and spoon the other way round (Fork on right, spoon on left). Which is the wrong way of using it I think :x
  2. I like to drink soup aaaaaaaaaaaa lot. Especially mom's soup. ^_^
  3. I like the sound of crickets! :D It gives off a very nature, summer feelingXD
  4. I once stapled my finger accidentally. It hurts like crazy~ @__@
  5. I used to call those construction cranes Giraffe when I was young. (Because I don't know what they were called)
  6. There was once when I was curious and went to played with my mom's sewing machine and my hand ended up stuck in the sewing machine.
  7. I have always wanted to go to a place with a beautiful field of grass and roll on it with the beautiful sky just ahead of me. Dah~ *dream*
  8. I like clubbing but I don't like to club. -_- Hmm~ Ok, I like to club but not with other people. (In other words, I would book the whole club if I have the money and go clubbing with my friends) Imagine all those people you are not close to, dancing around you with all those sweat. Eww~
  9. Recently, I found out that I have no talents... LOL! Sound pathetic but really!! ): I want to learn something and master it. >:(
  10. When I yawn, I tear a lot. And many of my friends who don't know it at first will ask when am I crying all of a sudden. (I am a very teary person. When I cry it's like a downpour~)
KAAAAY! DONE :D
Like finally~ I thought for so long! Dahaha~
And I really feel that blogging have helped me improved my English a little! I hope... :x
Shall update soon! ^__^

I remain paused at a green hill, holding a conversation I’ve yet to finish with him.
Hola,
☁onebluesky
You’d know when you approach me on a ship
That I’m not an island, but an iceberg
The four seasons never suitted me in the first place
I’m a cold child


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